Garfield: "Love me, feed me, never leave me"

LOL :D

Not a long time ago, we discussed at school, which one is first,

the thought or the feeling...

What do you think?

The right answer should be the thought...

Today after my handbell choir I was walking to home and I thought about life and death. Everyday some people dye, but my friends knew two of them whose turn was today. These are kind of days what affect

us more than normally to think these kind of thought. We're starting to think, when is our turn?

I don't want to scare anybody, but are we ready?

Funny...

People talk to us, they may say the words to just say something, but it can start bother us, aren't it? We can think and think and think - create a lots of theories about why this person said these words.

One day I was alone at home, i was sitting in the kitchen and I heard a clock, what was in the living room... a little time I was listening that, but then i couldn't anymore. I went there and took the battery off.

These are really the small things, right?

Old friends know you!

I have a friend! We know each other 7 years maybe or more? I'm not sure... and actually it doesn't matter at all, what matters is, we help each other and even if we don't see each other very often, we still know each other needs. It's funny, because we are SO different, but... maybe it's even better, :)

Oh, time flies and I should go...

See the people around you!

With love,

M.

Have you thought about how changeable mood can be?

At one moment you feel just awesome, suddenly something happens and you easily forget what was before. All your energy goes away and you can't stop thinking about what happened.

Yesterday was a day like every other, but in the same time, it was a day when I gathered my thoughts . It'd be better for you, if you don't know about who I'm going to talk.

In my head is a lots of ideas, things what I truly believe in, things what can be better...Maybe it's my mistake!

I don't like to give up, I care a lot about things what are important to me. All these years I have had a plan what would change a lot in my life. But I've always been scared, I've hoped that one day it would be better. Yesterday I hoped that it'd be that day. I totally did...

It didn't go that way.

We have people around us who we love. It's wonderful, even if we can get hurt.

It's easy to love good things, but we have to love everything in person, also his/her mistakes.

Just happy!

It's 2.22 am and I'm awake.

I had pretty weird, productive and fun day and now I can't get ride of that...

I just feel that it was like a dream... Hahaa.

So much is possible!

These 3 days what i had off were SUPER

I relaxed, hanged out with friends, went out for eating, worked out, babysit my brother, visited movie theatre, went to the girls night and to the church :)

Yesterday the school started again.. Have a nice new semester!

AWESOME!

I did it. It's over now! I feel so good after all that studying what I did.

I watched "Make it or break it" & went to work out! Thank you for keeping my mood up all this time!

Oh, such a great day!

Have a nice day!

Next productive and tough day is already here – let's use it :)

We practised "Breath"(it's so pretty song) today at handbell choir.

Was a day.

Let's see, what questions I'll get tomorrow... I hope my favorites :)

Wish me luck, please! THANKS

I believe that one of the best feelings is after you've had a productive day. When you are SO tired, but inside yourself you know, you've done a lot. You've done your best.

I woke up early to see Liis (one of my bf-s) who came back from Põlva(small town in Estonia where her grandparents live). After that I went to library. Studied, studied, studied.

Between that I had lunch with Kätlin, Laura and Iren - it was awesome!

Later I went back to the library with Kätlin. SUPER

Actually I still feel totally lost. I know that I've so many things what I still don't know, but...

Be happy!

I don't know have you ever felt in that way but I do.

You are thinking you should totally give up and just go on with your life and in the same time you are thinking giving up would be the worst thing to do...

We always have opinions and I don't want to say it's a bad thing. But if we always say these things loud, we should think first, everybody knows that. Often we think we know what's the best for the people who we care about, my question is how is that possible? We may wonder...but we can never be sure.

What do you think about a humor in our everyday life? Most of us can say they like that, it makes the life more interesting. I would say the same. But we forget or we just don't know how to use that in right way. What is the right way? It depends on a lot of things.

Sometimes we use the humor to talk about really serious things. The feelings are serious topic, right? It's much easier to show them through the humor, isn't it?

It's unfear to hurt people through the humor. But we affect others without knowing that. This is not funny.

Kersti, Kristin, Elen, Duda, Maria, mama Nancy, papa Pat and Alex - I'd like to bring all of you here and spend time with you!!! Whatever you are up to, I hope everything is fine with you and you are happy!

Studying - almost everything goes around that.

I didn't pass my exam and I have to do that again. Don't worry, I'm not sad or anything, just tired. As I mentioned in my last post, my exam was on Wednesday. I felt pretty bad after that. I'm always going to the library after exams, but this time I didn't . I knew that I still need these books. But it was still a great day. I went to work out. Durning the running I listened my favorite songs and it almost made my day. In the evening I had my handball quire and we practised a new song,what I just love :) Later I went to Matu's apartment. There were also Mart and Jaanus and we watched

movies together. I had a FUN night what i really needed.

On Thursday I was so nervous. I was checking my grades and then I saw my "F". It sucked. Then I started to study again. I'm doing that every day now, because on Thursday I will pass. I just know. I need do and I believe I can do it. If not, then i can still be happy, because I know that I have done my best! It's everything what I can do.

Just listen the song Kutless - What faith can do ;)

I really enjoy that.

Everybody falls sometimes

Gotta find the strength to rise

On Friday I went to the library with Kätlin(she is one of my best friends) and we tri

ed to study of course. And we went out to for a lunch to eat chinese, we studied even there. I know

, it seems awkward. You should all know I'm not normal, hahaa!:D In the evening I went to the youth night. Piia and Kristi (they are sisters of my another best friend) were there. It was relaxing time, what i totally enjoyed.

On Saturday you can guess what i did...hahaa:D

Anybody who needs some clue? I don't think so... Jes, you are all right! I studied all day long and for the evening I had a horrible headache, I was hoping that it will go away after i r

elax, but it didn't. But I was still happy! I went to Matu's again. He was making the dinner. Actually I eat pancakes before going there, but it's so cool when the boys know how to cook. We watched TV and also Jaanus joined with us. FUN, FUN and more FUN :) When I was back at home my headache went stronger and stronger and I just hit my bed as soon as I could.

Today was a huge studying day AGAIN. But before I went to my greatgrandmother's to celebrate her birthday. She is 92 and she still cares about her look.

Now I'm sitting in the living room with Piia and we are drinking tea and watching TV. I just finished talking with Duda(my Brazilian, best sis ever). I miss her SO much, but if everything goes as in my plans, we'll see each other in summer. I can't wait!

And as Piia likes to say "Tough times never last, tough people do". Actually it's the name of the book, but we haven't read that.

I feel so tired. I wake up and one of the first thing what I do is thinking about studying. It makes me sick. So soon i will have a break and this makes me feel much better. MY MOTIVATION:D

I woke up, ate my breakfast and then my dad gave me a ride to the library. I tried to study, but i felt like a person without a brain, I just read the lines and my thought just flight away... After two hours studying I went to eat lunch(chinese food) with Liis. Even Maarja came. We hadn't seen her a long time. It was a nice time with both of you. Thank you :)

After that I went to the library to study more, I stayed there maybe an hour and then my headache got too strong and I decided to go home. I slept a little while and then tried to study more.

I should do just fine, right?

Well, I'm trying!

Hi sweeties,

I know that you haven't heard about me a long time. I'm sorry.

But let's go on. I am not sure, you already know that or not, but I am SO lucky. I didn't have to go back to the high school and repeat my senior year. The University of Tartu accepted my report card and everything. Isn't it awesome? Maybe you are wondering what I'm studying...special education! It even surprised me, but at the moment I'm enjoying it and it is what matters. :)

Last month and also this one have been really hard for me, because I've been busy most of the time. In December I had a lots of concerts with handbells and the main concert, it was so pretty! It just made my day and gave me more motivation to practice.

Now I'm going back to study, but you should know that I remember you and I'm so thankful for you and God for this BEST opportunity what I had to get to know you ;)

God bless!

Merili :)

Tegelikult on mul veel vana blogigi lõpetamata, aga ...

Väga palju on muutunud ajaga, mil tagasi Eestis olen olnud. Päris keeruline on kirjutamistki alustada, kui 101 mõtet korraga peas ringi tatsab, ning siis nende seast leida see alustala, millele oma esimene postitus püstitada.

Muidugi oleks tore ja arusaadav kui alustaks kronoloogilises järjekorras, aga ma ei taha nii.

Ma olen täiega koolist väsinud, ma tean juba enamus eksamite hindeid, v.a suhtlemispsühholoogia ja ANATOOMIA, mida ma pole veel teha jõudnud, ning milleks ma vb ka praegu peaks õppima...

Mõtetel on aga tiivad, ning minu omad lendavad hoopis teistes suundades.

Vaatasin just "My sister's keeper" filmi, mida ma ülikaua juba näha olin tahtnud, kahjuks lõpuni ikka ei jõudnud, enne läks kogemata kinni. Mulle täiega meeldis, raamat on ikkagi parem, aga filmi kiidaksin siiski. Tegelikult on see hästi kurb, kuid mõtlema panev film, ning ma ei arva, et häbiasi on selle filmi ajal mõned pisarad poetada. Reaalsus ongi karm. Aga elu on ilus, kui seda filmi vaatama juhtute, siis mõelge eriti selle ranna koha peale ;)

Rääkisin täna paar sõna Kerstiga. Ma igatsen teda VÄGA! Kui seda lugema juhtud, siis tea, et kuigi ma nii harva Sinuga küll vahetult rääkida saan, siis tegelikult mõtlen ja palun sinu pärast tihti. Ning ma pole ainuke, kes sing igatseb. Liis ja Maarja ning su pere ja kõik teised sõbrad! Aga aeg läheb ruttu, naudi oma aega seal, et sa sinna tükk aega tagasi ei peaks mine,a okei okei, lihtsalt mitte nii kauaks enam:D

Mis siis veel? Mhm, Lauriita kutsus mind Matu juurde. Olime veits aega seal, nüüd Jaanus ja Kertu ka seal, ning mul oli täiega teine tunne seal täna olla. Matu ja Laura jändasid kodulehtedega, millest mina MITTE midagi ei jaga, aga ikkagi oli tore.

NII HEA ON TAGASI KODUS OLLA! :)

PS! Liisu, ära karda, niipea ma veel ära ei lähe, ma ei luba, et siia jäängi, aga nii kaua, kui siin olen, tahan Sinuga hästi palju koos olla, sest Sa oled mulle täiega kallis sõbranna!:)

Mul pole nagu üldse und, kuna olen pool päeva "õppinud", mis võrdub 2/3 ajast magamisega. Peaks äkki praegu õppima? Anatoomia kui parim unerohi aitab alati!:D

Praegu siia pilti otsides kuulan Steven Curtisi Cinderellat, mmmm.... :)

Olge terved!

Armastusega,

Merra :)