Studying - almost everything goes around that.

I didn't pass my exam and I have to do that again. Don't worry, I'm not sad or anything, just tired. As I mentioned in my last post, my exam was on Wednesday. I felt pretty bad after that. I'm always going to the library after exams, but this time I didn't . I knew that I still need these books. But it was still a great day. I went to work out. Durning the running I listened my favorite songs and it almost made my day. In the evening I had my handball quire and we practised a new song,what I just love :) Later I went to Matu's apartment. There were also Mart and Jaanus and we watched

movies together. I had a FUN night what i really needed.

On Thursday I was so nervous. I was checking my grades and then I saw my "F". It sucked. Then I started to study again. I'm doing that every day now, because on Thursday I will pass. I just know. I need do and I believe I can do it. If not, then i can still be happy, because I know that I have done my best! It's everything what I can do.

Just listen the song Kutless - What faith can do ;)

I really enjoy that.

Everybody falls sometimes

Gotta find the strength to rise

On Friday I went to the library with Kätlin(she is one of my best friends) and we tri

ed to study of course. And we went out to for a lunch to eat chinese, we studied even there. I know

, it seems awkward. You should all know I'm not normal, hahaa!:D In the evening I went to the youth night. Piia and Kristi (they are sisters of my another best friend) were there. It was relaxing time, what i totally enjoyed.

On Saturday you can guess what i did...hahaa:D

Anybody who needs some clue? I don't think so... Jes, you are all right! I studied all day long and for the evening I had a horrible headache, I was hoping that it will go away after i r

elax, but it didn't. But I was still happy! I went to Matu's again. He was making the dinner. Actually I eat pancakes before going there, but it's so cool when the boys know how to cook. We watched TV and also Jaanus joined with us. FUN, FUN and more FUN :) When I was back at home my headache went stronger and stronger and I just hit my bed as soon as I could.

Today was a huge studying day AGAIN. But before I went to my greatgrandmother's to celebrate her birthday. She is 92 and she still cares about her look.

Now I'm sitting in the living room with Piia and we are drinking tea and watching TV. I just finished talking with Duda(my Brazilian, best sis ever). I miss her SO much, but if everything goes as in my plans, we'll see each other in summer. I can't wait!

And as Piia likes to say "Tough times never last, tough people do". Actually it's the name of the book, but we haven't read that.

I feel so tired. I wake up and one of the first thing what I do is thinking about studying. It makes me sick. So soon i will have a break and this makes me feel much better. MY MOTIVATION:D

I woke up, ate my breakfast and then my dad gave me a ride to the library. I tried to study, but i felt like a person without a brain, I just read the lines and my thought just flight away... After two hours studying I went to eat lunch(chinese food) with Liis. Even Maarja came. We hadn't seen her a long time. It was a nice time with both of you. Thank you :)

After that I went to the library to study more, I stayed there maybe an hour and then my headache got too strong and I decided to go home. I slept a little while and then tried to study more.

I should do just fine, right?

Well, I'm trying!

Hi sweeties,

I know that you haven't heard about me a long time. I'm sorry.

But let's go on. I am not sure, you already know that or not, but I am SO lucky. I didn't have to go back to the high school and repeat my senior year. The University of Tartu accepted my report card and everything. Isn't it awesome? Maybe you are wondering what I'm studying...special education! It even surprised me, but at the moment I'm enjoying it and it is what matters. :)

Last month and also this one have been really hard for me, because I've been busy most of the time. In December I had a lots of concerts with handbells and the main concert, it was so pretty! It just made my day and gave me more motivation to practice.

Now I'm going back to study, but you should know that I remember you and I'm so thankful for you and God for this BEST opportunity what I had to get to know you ;)

God bless!

Merili :)

Tegelikult on mul veel vana blogigi lõpetamata, aga ...

Väga palju on muutunud ajaga, mil tagasi Eestis olen olnud. Päris keeruline on kirjutamistki alustada, kui 101 mõtet korraga peas ringi tatsab, ning siis nende seast leida see alustala, millele oma esimene postitus püstitada.

Muidugi oleks tore ja arusaadav kui alustaks kronoloogilises järjekorras, aga ma ei taha nii.

Ma olen täiega koolist väsinud, ma tean juba enamus eksamite hindeid, v.a suhtlemispsühholoogia ja ANATOOMIA, mida ma pole veel teha jõudnud, ning milleks ma vb ka praegu peaks õppima...

Mõtetel on aga tiivad, ning minu omad lendavad hoopis teistes suundades.

Vaatasin just "My sister's keeper" filmi, mida ma ülikaua juba näha olin tahtnud, kahjuks lõpuni ikka ei jõudnud, enne läks kogemata kinni. Mulle täiega meeldis, raamat on ikkagi parem, aga filmi kiidaksin siiski. Tegelikult on see hästi kurb, kuid mõtlema panev film, ning ma ei arva, et häbiasi on selle filmi ajal mõned pisarad poetada. Reaalsus ongi karm. Aga elu on ilus, kui seda filmi vaatama juhtute, siis mõelge eriti selle ranna koha peale ;)

Rääkisin täna paar sõna Kerstiga. Ma igatsen teda VÄGA! Kui seda lugema juhtud, siis tea, et kuigi ma nii harva Sinuga küll vahetult rääkida saan, siis tegelikult mõtlen ja palun sinu pärast tihti. Ning ma pole ainuke, kes sing igatseb. Liis ja Maarja ning su pere ja kõik teised sõbrad! Aga aeg läheb ruttu, naudi oma aega seal, et sa sinna tükk aega tagasi ei peaks mine,a okei okei, lihtsalt mitte nii kauaks enam:D

Mis siis veel? Mhm, Lauriita kutsus mind Matu juurde. Olime veits aega seal, nüüd Jaanus ja Kertu ka seal, ning mul oli täiega teine tunne seal täna olla. Matu ja Laura jändasid kodulehtedega, millest mina MITTE midagi ei jaga, aga ikkagi oli tore.

NII HEA ON TAGASI KODUS OLLA! :)

PS! Liisu, ära karda, niipea ma veel ära ei lähe, ma ei luba, et siia jäängi, aga nii kaua, kui siin olen, tahan Sinuga hästi palju koos olla, sest Sa oled mulle täiega kallis sõbranna!:)

Mul pole nagu üldse und, kuna olen pool päeva "õppinud", mis võrdub 2/3 ajast magamisega. Peaks äkki praegu õppima? Anatoomia kui parim unerohi aitab alati!:D

Praegu siia pilti otsides kuulan Steven Curtisi Cinderellat, mmmm.... :)

Olge terved!

Armastusega,

Merra :)